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AIM me! ~ ILik3PoOp ~ ~ xHollaatDisx ~
Expertise:it's a secret If i told you it wouldn't be a secret now would it? O.o
... Iono.. i guess this shits dead.... I have a myspace now.. yeah.. i
just write poems and shit on it... Iono.. well I started therapy
again.. I have it this Sunday... it's alright i guess.. i mean.. i have
nothing to loose... I'm already fucked up as it is.. Yaco told me it
was ok to get crazy once in a while.. ahha...Dr.Mendoza said that I
wasn't really "socializing" in group.. I mean.. i would like to tell
them everything about me.. but who the fuck cares? Just some fucking
psycho lil kids running away from their problems cutting themselves and
shit.. haha... well i guess i am too... last week was pretty um...
"alive" John told me I was pretty and shit... I told him thnx and
walked away the next thing i knew he was sharin at group and told
people i rejected him or w/e..I let it go.. I don't need that shit..
he's cool.. but u know how it is.. aha.. i thought he was cute.. but
he's crazier than me.. and he's in anger management too...anywho..
Debra had a break down or w/e... it was kinda interesting.. she was
crying as hell.. she wouldn't stop.. they had to call her mom and
everyone had to give her a hug and shit.. I thought that was retarded..
But i guess a hug wouldn't hurt... a really big long one.. Dr.Mendoza
said that's what i always missed out on.. cuz i push people away..
well.. he is right... I don't need a long hug from people i don't give
a fuck about.. psha.. don't need to pretend... or do i?dun dun dun..
well.. neways.. iono when I'll blog on this shit again.. I have a
"journal" now... I have helluh poems in that shit... Group said it
could comfort u in some way if u write.. so im writing.. I write poems
in it mostly.. i carry it everywhere.. well almost everywhere...Poems
mostly about.. love.. well there was once I wrote about a tree... i
didn't have anything to write and I was outside sitting beside a
tree... well anywho... this is my myspace shit.. http://www.myspace.com/8649103
yeah it has pictures in it... and um.. iono... soem of my poems and people commenting like crazy... hmm.. well neways.. later...
*I don't know why I feel so down. I try putting this frown upside
down.. I just realized how much u love-ed me... but now it's to late...
cuz my lifes already screwed and you don't love me anymore... Life is
interesting.. dull.. heart breaking.. I need to find my "comfort
zone"... ahah.. oh yeah.. i love you... not that it matters... You
don't feel the same.. I just write something you won't see.. but it's
alright.. i live day by day.. hiding everything to hide.. did i
mention.. i cry every night?... wishing u weren't so far away.. and
life was back the way it was...." -anonymous-
Gawd! i haven't been here in so long.. well neways.. um... yeah.. easter sucked. kinda.. IT was horried.. gawd.. i got like 6 dollars an my cuzin gor like 11 wtf.. anyways..i spent my eater at frisco with my familia.. yuhp.. then on monday.. me,dex,sarah and Rolf went to the movies... we watched ring 2 that movie was lame... i got ripped off them ass fuckers... neways.. yesterday i went to target with Sarah then we went to dexters house.. his house reminds me of my house in the Philippines.. ahha helluh Pnoy! neways.. today me an Sarah went to the american canyon skate park.. uuuw.. i got broke.. well scratches much.. ahha.. i tried skateboarding.. shiat.. i sucked... neways... um.. im not doin nething tomorrow.. cuz iono.. im a loser.. and I'm lame... and no i don't wanna play pool cuz i don't know how too.. so neways... I think im gonna sleep in as usually cuz i don't wanna go newhere.. I've been goin out to much.. so yeah.. laterzZZz
word up foos! ahaha! what's crackin? wow.. havn't been in this shit for heckuh long.. well neways i was in an ok mood today! I was one of the winners for this writing shit which i did a long time ago for extra credit in english. an I won! isn't that convenient? ahha... that shit's awesome...
well anyways.. um... Navy ball was pretty ok... I didn't win buh i really didn't care much.. ahha alot of freak dancing was going on... lmao... well neways.. i helluh danced with Mike,Angelo, Andrew an Dexter... Andrew was my "date" for the night lol or somethin like that... well it was fun.. um... yeah.. nuff said.. lol ... later...
oh on saturday ima watch ring 2 with dex,sarah,rolf an who ever else they bringin.. cool...
well editing this piece of crap... Yesterday i went to fairfield mall with Dexter ,Sarah ,Jumel ,Jerry ,Dangelo Cota ,Angelo , Lizzie ,Michelle , Mike , Jamar , and these 4 girls thats Michelles friends...
WE went to take our picture sor her quinciniera thingy.. then we went to spencers.. that place it weirdlishly funny.. lol.. well Sarah was takn pictures inside so she got kicked out.. buh it was funny.. i looked weird with that jamaican hat on with the fake dreds.. lol.. buh anyways.. their was um... interesting things in there.. lol ... after that we ate at the chinese food place... it was yummy.. we were gonna stay longer and watch a movie buh them girls didn't have money... So we went to lizzies house and we stayed there for a while... it was like 10 or something.. they were drinking.. tsk tsk.. her 12 year old cousin was helluh drinking.. it was funny... then I went home and talked to people online about interesting things lol.. especially to Angelo... whew... anyways..
Today i went to my lil cuzin Romerics b-day it was like hawaiian theme ish... it was pretty cool... we did alot of eating and physical activities.. it was cool.. ahahha these really young gys were following me an my lil cousin... I told em that they should find someone there own age.. they were like 13 or something... lol... neways... im here at Frisco (I was at San Bruno park) and iono waht time we're leaving... buh yeah.. this week is gonna be busy as hell!!!! Navy ball comming an all...
u know whats annoying? yuhp you got it! ME! I hate myself!
you know how at the beggining people have qualities that you like... in the end.. it gets fuckin annoying... like uh... it's just... i want to be iono... im fuckin retarded... im just full off shit... i hate myself..
